CSA: A Background to my Poetry
I have been asked so many times in the past why I write poems, what my poems are about. Sometimes it is obvious what my poems are about – other times they are more cryptic.
Whilst I was being sexually abused I felt so alone, so isolated. I didn’t know what to do. I couldn’t speak to anyone about the abuse I was going through, I didn’t know how to or what to say – but most of all I didn’t think that anyone would believe me.
During one of the periods in time when the sexual abuse was happening very regularly I wrote an awful lot of poetry. I find that writing my feelings is a hell of a lot easier that talk about them out loud. Talking about it out loud makes everything ‘real’ and at that time I wanted to forget about it as much as possible.
Looking back at some of my poems now, I was in a very dark place and I wanted help I just didn’t know how to get myself that help.
I still write about being sexual abused now and I think I always probably will because some days it affects me more than others. Sometimes I just need to express how I feel and I don’t really want to talk to a person about it, I just simply want to get my feelings out.
– Stacey xo