So recently I have found things really hard to deal with and I feel like I am burying my head in the sand a bit. So I went to see my doctor on Monday it was the first time I had been to the doctor since moving. I hate going to the doctors – it makes me really anxious, I’m terrified of going so normally I avoid going at all costs.
It was embarrassing because I ended up getting in quite a state, I was crying as I explained how bad my head was… is. I’m so thankful it was a female doctor. I don’t think I would have opened up so much if it was a male doctor. I also wasn’t sure if going to the doctor was the right thing to be doing.
She gave me some numbers for different people who could help me so that I could go back to counselling. She also gave me some tablets for depression and anxiety – although I haven’t touched them yet… they scare me – I don’t want how I’m feeling to get worse which the Dr explained probably would happen before it gets better.
I need to make an appointment to go back in 2 weeks so she can see if I have made any progress I guess and to see how I’m doing.
It is daunting that I am feeling like this. But hopefully I am taking the right steps to head back into a better place mentally.
We shall see how it goes and I will keep you all updated.
– Stacey xo