It’s not always easy explaining to people that you’re finding things hard. It’s even worse when you can’t work out why you are feeling the way you are. I guess that’s what happens when you have a combination of mental health issues which occassionally resurface at times – usually when things are going pretty good.
I’m not and have never been very good a vocalising when I’m not feeling okay. Recently I have started to talk to people about my warning signs that show me things aren’t okay.
This past week or so I’m not ashamed to say I have struggled and at times I have hidden it – or at least tried to. Other times I have tried to speak about it but haven’t always been able to find the right words to say what was going on in my head. When I realised that I wasn’t myself I arranged to have a chat with my counsellor to try and work out the things that I was struggling to make sense of.
People often say they are there if you need them but when you do it’s hard to talk to them because there never seems to be a right moment, they are having a bad day themselves or other things can get in the way. Luckily I have a group of people around me who pick me up when things get hard and my girlfriend is pretty good at knowing if something is up and keeping me distracted until I am ready to talk about it.
This isn’t what I was originally planning to post today, but mental health has been in the media a lot recently and when I realised that I was struggling I knew who and where I could turn to for help when I needed it. People don’t always feel like they have that support around them, it might not feel like it but everyone has someone that they can speak to when they need it.